Jealousy and Lust

Pushed away from today,
My mind is stuck in another place,
Hidden within myself, will I be here tomorrow?
green eyes are showing the outside how to thrive
red lips showing the inside how to die.
At least I tried, even if my hands were tied.
No one sees how much it is bothering me.
Lust with a hint of jealousy
Red ruby and an emerald green, Tourchers me.
Lust for him thrives from me,
Jealousy giving in from my lonely heart.
In his ocean blue eyes I wish to be the only one there.
But I know his eyes wander,
and just like the red lips it kills me on the inside.